wanna scream it out loud

why why why Huweee huweee.. kalo kata MBlaq Y.. a song from Rain
I keep trying.. trying to reach instead trying hard to avoid it
not just one but more than that.. have I mention it one by one??
its so hard since I dont really know what I really like, what I really want
Keep guessing.. keeP boring.. keep asking.. answering and then forget it in the
same time. This is so confusing.. so hard to take ... so so so desperate
Owh thiz tgis is the real real answer, a pure one
Not to asking and never answer it
a DESPERATE one, me myself and I
do I have to be in this way.. Its look simple to break it
No one could realize this is hard so hard...
and i'm the stupid one who standing still, stay put..
Never break the rules.. Stupid rules.. what I create and in the same time
hate it really deep

I I I I juz dont want to be like thiz.. I want U or U or U or or or??
Its keeps changing by minute